I don't feel emotions anymore? Whats wrong with me?

It's kind of like past emptiness and numbness- its literally just nothing. I can't make myself cry even though I'd rather feel a deep pain than nothing at all. And whenever things happen that should make me happy, its like I think the feeling of happiness, I don't actually feel it. Like, in my mind, I say "Wow. This is great." but I don't feel it. Even with my boyfriend- its definitely not a lack of interest in him at all, I love him to death...but I can't feel it. I can't feel that love, or that happiness when I'm with him, I just think it in my head. Also when I'm out with friends, and were all laughing and having a good time, I don't feel that happiness either. I have very bad depression/anxiety problems and they aren't being treated...Too young to get to a doctor myself and my mom wont take me. please tell me what i can do